We've had a lot of it lately. It's been in the 80s the past three days. And, surprisingly, I haven't been miserable; it's actually been kind of nice most of the time, though I do get really overheated and worn out if I have to walk a lot out in the sun during the day in this kind of weather. It's easier to deal with when the wind is blowing, at least, and it cools off at night and becomes really nice walking-around-outside type weather. Too bad everyone's so busy with homework lately, or I'd probably end up asking some girl to go for a walk around the area with me sometime. Might still end up doing that, depending on how busy I am next week, since I won't be quite as homework-overloaded as I am now (at least, if I make some progress on my Printmaking stuff before this week's over... still no ideas yet, unfortunately.)
Yesterday was a pretty good day for the most part... until the very end. I pretty much screwed up then... there's a girl who I've been thinking of asking on a date or something for a few weeks now, and last week she actually asked me if I had asked anyone to the dance that's coming up yet. Which was especially weird considering that this was almost two whole weeks before the dance; she's asked me this in the week immediately before a dance before, but never that far ahead of time. So I kind of interpret that as a "hint" she's trying to give me, like she wants me to ask her, and several other people I asked about it agreed. Then the problems start. I don't see her at all for two days at the start of the week after deciding that I will actually try to ask her. And then, late at night on the second day, I try to call her and ask her that way. And... it just doesn't work. I get way too nervous and start freaking out and am unable to even form complete sentences. I can't even explain to her what's going on, and I definitely can't manage to ask her to the dance in that state, so eventually I just end up hanging up the phone and wishing I had never tried.
And then it gets worse. She sends me a text message asking if I'm okay, I guess assuming that I called her because something was horribly wrong rather than the call itself being what went horribly wrong. I basically tell her that there wasn't anything going on before, and that I was going to try and ask her to the dance but I'm terrible at doing that and I freaked out and couldn't get words to work. And... no response. I never got another message back from her after that. I mean, it was pretty late (after 12:30) by then so I thought it could just be that she went to bed, but... all day today, still no response. And I haven't really seen her or talked to her at all since this all happened, so I don't know if I messed up and freaked her out with all that or if she's still okay with me after it or what. I mean, I'm definitely not going to be able to go to the dance with her at this point (first of all, it's pretty much already Thursday and the dance is on Friday so it's pretty much too late to ask anyone; second of all, when something goes that badly the first time, I don't try it again), but I want to at least explain the situation better than some dinky text message could do and make sure we're still friends and she hasn't been scared off by that. I don't know, I might just be worrying too much about nothing, but I can't help it.
Okay, on to better news. There were actually people around on campus tonight. Seriously. All this semester nobody seemed to ever be around, and tonight I kept bumping into tons of people I knew just hanging around at 9:00, 10:00, 11:00... pretty much whatever time of night I happened to be wandering around. Bumped into some people studying on a picnic table outside the library, then a bunch of the girls from the Library Mods hitting a volleyball around in the field there (I joined in for a while), then some more hanging around just sitting in the grass somewhere, and finally there were some more people in the art building working on a Senior Show project. Actually got to know a new person there tonight; I think I've seen her around once or twice before, but never really talked to her until today. She also gave me a ride down to Carriage, so I didn't have to walk all the way down for once! That's always good.
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