I'm not sure if I really want to keep updating this thing anymore. There just hasn't been a whole lot going on in my life lately, aside from classes and endless piles of painting-related homework. Probably the last things worth mentioning were the movie a couple weeks ago (the new Superman movie, Man of Steel--the school was showing it and I went... I can't remember if I already mentioned this in a previous post or not, I've forgotten just how long it's been since the last time I updated this thing!) and the Multicultural Festival thing the school had last Saturday (which I went to most of, only leaving later on because they everyone moved into one part of the room and things got a bit too crowdy for me, especially without having anywhere to sit and watch the stuff that was going on.) I also went to a friend's birthday party, where there was a lot of goofing off with party hats--people ending up with multiple hats on the same head--and watching The Hobbit in weird green colors because we had a messed-up projector.
Unfortunately I was not able to see the play that was going on the past two weeks (Hello Dolly), mainly because everyone I knew pretty much went the first week (or Friday of the second week, but tickets were sold out before I could get one) and I was planning on going the second week... the only reason I even bought a ticket the last day was because someone claimed they would sit with me to help with crowd issues if I went that day... and then they didn't, they plopped down right in the middle of a row where first of all there wasn't even room for another person, and second of all... I couldn't have sat there anyway because it was the middle of the damn row. Seriously, I specifically said "I'll probably have to sit toward the front, on the edge of a row"... and when looking for a place to sit, right after seeing me there and saying hi, she goes straight for the middle of a row in the back. Okay, if you're not actually planning on sitting with someone, please do not offer to sit with them. I ended up having to leave (even though I had already wasted $7 on the ticket!) after that point because there was just not anywhere I could sit; the rest of the audience was pretty much all total strangers, and what few people I knew were around were all crammed in the middle of rows, too (or they were people I didn't know well enough to sit with comfortably. or both.) So yeah... that pretty much sucked. I doubt I'll make any more attempts to go to SVU plays and such after this, at least not if I don't know for sure that someone I know pretty well is going and will actually be okay with sitting next to me to prevent crowd-freakouts.
Speaking of stuff that hasn't worked out this semester, I haven't been on a single date this whole time. Several times earlier on I had thought of asking someone on one, but every time something came up--usually it turned out that the girl I was thinking of asking (there's been two so far) was going to be busy with something else pretty much any time I could think of asking her to come do something with me. I'm almost wondering if I should just completely give up on dating here at SVU, because it feels like it's just going nowhere, between the lack of dates this semester and the whole "everyone here is Mormon so they probably wouldn't want to date me anyway because of annoying, outdated only-date-within-your-religion BS" issue. That, and I kind of feel like I'm slowly starting to drift away from someone I've liked for a long time here... I don't know, maybe it's just that I haven't seen her much this semester (especially the later half of this semester), but it's getting harder and harder to imagine anything ever actually happening between us. But, weirdly enough, I really don't want to lose that... even if my chances are terrible, at the same time I really don't like the idea of not having those feelings for her anymore. I'm not really sure how to explain it, so what I just wrote probably makes no sense to anyone reading this (...ha! someone actually reading this! no way that'd ever happen)... but oh well.
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