My memory is wonky.

Just looked over my first month or so of these blog posts from waaaaay back when I first came to SVU.  It's really odd how a few things apparently happened differently than I remember them, comparing my memories as of now to what I wrote down at the time.

No major differences or anything, but there were some strange little inconsistencies here and there.  Like when I was writing about how I'd ended up starting to like three different girls way back then... it turns out that the one I had always thought (and who I've repeatedly told people) had been the first one I started to really like might have actually been the second or even third girl I met here that drifted out of the "new friends" range and up into "hey I actually really like this person and might ask her on a date"... while one I've basically lost interest in by this point seems to have actually been the first one that really caught my attention.  I remembered that these three had been the first few that I ended up liking when I came here, but I had somehow gotten the order mixed up.

And reading back on those old posts kind of brought up some "what if I had picked someone different for first-girl-I-ever-asked-on-a-date?" thoughts now.  I mean, yeah, all that did end up happening as a result of the choice I made back then was pretty great and I wouldn't take it back for anything, and I think those few dates way back in October of 2011 were probably at least part of why/how we got to know each other so well and are still such good friends even now (even if dating/relationships/etc. aren't a possibility)... but I can't help but wonder how things would have gone if my first attempt at asking a girl on a date had been directed at someone else instead.  I mean, it's way too late to go back and try again now--I basically lost interest in this particular girl over a year ago now, and I have strong suspicions that she doesn't really have the best opinion of me and probably wouldn't consider going on a date with me for a second even if I did really still want to try... but the "how would that have gone?" thoughts are still there.