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Another day, another failed attempt at asking the cute redhead out on a date... looks like there's going to be a pattern here.  I don't know what the problem is... I normally have no problem whatsoever talking to her, and even asking questions about other stuff... but when it comes to actually trying to ask her out, I somehow can never manage to actually get words to come out.  And even worse, this time it was almost like she was giving me ideas on what we could actually do (seriously, one thing that came up when we were talking was "when do you have free time so we can go watch How to Train Your Dragon?"... I haven't seen it, and she really likes it and wants me to see it eventually, along with about a million other movies... and books... and webcomics... and... yeah, there's a lot of "her suggesting new stuff for me to read/watch" whenever we talk, heh), and even then I couldn't actually come out and say anything...


This is extremely frustrating.  Pretty much the first time I've ever even tried to ask a girl out, and... I just can't do it! I almost feel like giving up on the whole thing, but I know that if I did give up it'd just make me feel even worse than I already do.  I'm almost thinking of temporarily giving up on asking this girl out and trying to ask one of the other two that I like, but... one is getting sick and the other has barely talked to me at all in the past week or so.  It's like there's no possible way this can turn out good unless I somehow manage to ask her out (and even then it could still turn out bad...)


EDIT: Ignore all that stuff up there.  I just shattered one of the fundamental laws of the universe into a million pieces with nothing but 20 minutes and a cheap phone from Wal-Mart... which law? The one that says "Eddie will never go on a date or have any sort of relationship with girls," of course!  Let's hope it doesn't get reinstated anytime soon.
I'm not entirely sure how I did it, but... I managed to ask her out (over the phone, actually... seemed kind of odd to me at first, but it worked!) and it's going to happen sometime late-afternoon/early-evening-ish on this Saturday.  Still kind of in shock that this actually happened, but it's been long enough now that I think it's kind of sunk in that it did happen, it wasn't just a dream or a hallucination caused by bonking my head on something or accidentally inhaling some weird fumes.  I think I may actually have a little bit of self-confidence now.